21st June, 2012

 

Thank you Lord Shiva! :)

Lost and found...

These are a few water color paintings by me....painted in 2007, Kolkata. I lost these somewhere, but these remained somewhere in my almirah. I miss painting, an activity to calm down the racing mind. Will start as soon as I get time, hopefully. :)

All are damaged, discolored... but still a part of mine...remind me of the happiness I felt while painting these. I do not take care of anything at times....which is bad.My parents have kept my paintings back at my paternal home, in better condition.

 

A note to all on my 34th birthday!

                                                                                                                  Today is my 34th birthday. :) 

 

As always (post 2002), my husband was the first one to wish me. Then came wishes from my parents, brother and a few closest friends. And right now my facebook page is flooded with birth day wishes. All wishes of course make the day really special.

Birthdays, till now, have been special in terms of gifts received and how I celebrated. But this birthday, being the first one in Bangalore, I am physically away from my near and dear ones. This is the reason, I will not be celebrating the day the way I do usually. But, may be this is the first birthday, in which I am seeing a new me, and can actually differentiate me from pre-14.06.2011. This birth day is exceptional. 

Today, I take it as an opportunity to thank all, who have directly or indirectly helped me for being what I am today.

• My dad...I actually have started understanding you...which I did not in all these years. I love you so much. I know you will never read this blog. But may be that is why I am able to write here that I am proud of you. :P
• My mom...I know what you want to say, even when you are not able to set your words right. I know you are proud of me. :)
• My brother...thank you for understanding me when no one else could...I am proud of you, for the person you are.
• My son, your very existence kept me going...when nothing else worked! 
• Thank you Mridul, a friend still exists in you, beyond all other roles I play, you can see me as a human...
• Thank you Pankaj Pandey, Rajib Chaudhary, Sanhita Nag, Payel, Sangeeta Das, Holly McCulloch, Someswar Chakravorty for being there for me…you will always remain close to my heart.
• Thank you Ram Sankarda, Gurumurthi, for being friend and guide in my spiritual journey

Thank you Team Acteva, and Virtual Den members for giving me many fun-filled moments, when I needed them the most.

I thank all of those who are connected to me in the real world or virtual, and who have somehow touched my soul and inspired me. I thank you all! And I love you all....This birthday is special for me...because I never was in love with life. I wish to share the joy of living with you, which I do through my blog.

And at last, thank you my Lord Shiva...you showed me the truth, and its beauty. Be with me always!

Om Namah Shivay!

I am blessed

I am lucky that it did not take more than two to three months to learn how to live in moments. Earlier, I only heard the phrase without actually knowing the real meaning. I came to know about it and practiced with honesty. Here I am, happy, peaceful and satisfied.

When I get up in the morning and when I go to sleep at night...I see a happy me in the mirror. I was never so thankful for everything in my life. I feel blessed...

But let me tell you that there is no reason I may give for my thankfulness, no achievement to record...no new love in life, no additional money or asset I have accumulated. Just that everything around me seems feels so good or not/less irritating. The anger within seems to have got replaced with joy and hope.

I am full of gratitude for everything I have in my life, for all the experiences, fortunate and unfortunate moments, moments of hope and pain, betrayal and gain, love and hate. All of those make me what I am today. I am hopeful, and I do believe that nothing is actually impossible for me.

If you read through my blog…go back to the initial days...you will know how I have changed for better...You might get an answer too.

Believe that everything you wish for is possible. It is you who is going to do it for you, no one else. There is no one else to blame for your hopelessness, since the day you were sent to this earth you were equipped with a powerhouse within you, which remained unexplored, unused.  Ignite that powerhouse in you by taking charge of your life. Know yourself, accept situations as it is and then move on...to make changes  pro-actively to get the desired results.

This world is a great and vast jigsaw puzzle, the parts of which are dynamic...changing shape with every action you make. Our fate is in our hands...so there is no one to blame. Start right now...by believing in YOU. YOU ARE BLESSED...never forget that. :)

I will come back with more realizations...till then

Keep the faith!